Saturday, January 24, 2015
Why IS Enough Not
It is crazy the way we consume and then consume to store what we've consumed and then have sales and make donations to make more room to consume more!!!!!
STOP! I want off!!!
I have been hungering for space in my life since 2004. It's in my prayer journals and in my devotions and written on my heart!
Then why has it taken this long to let go?
Because I didn't want God more than anything or anyone else in my life, plain and simple.
I so often have felt like this...
but... all I do is this...
It is, was , will ALWAYS be my heart...it's a heart problem. The more cluttered my life gets the more distracted I am from what really matters.
that's a good coping or defense mechanism, but ULTIMATELY...
I miss the real life I was meant to live and lose touch with the real person I was created to be because...
I have lost sight, I have lost touch with God...my one true, faithful, forever LOVER of MY SOUL!
He always is here.
He always is in love with me and calling me.
He always wants to just be with me and to bask in one another's presence.
I have filled up the empty times, places, spaces, and seasons in my life with STUFF...good and bad STUFF.
Well, I am tired, fatigued, and weary because nothing, no activity, no person, no ministry, no addiction can replace the very source and Love of my life.
It's funny. I am a creative artistic type, but have a strong desire for order. I have never been able to figure that out...and maybe never will...but MAYbe...just MAYbe... some of that is because I have been unsettled and distracted like Martha.
"Martha, Martha," the Lord answered, "You are worried and upset about many things, but few things are needed - or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better and it will not be taken away from her."
Posted by Marsha at 11:43 AM